The Metropolitan City That Is My Mind

Lay in bed listening to Carly Rae Jepsen, some of the lyrics from her album really resonate!
It almost feels like there’s an entire city in my head cos there’s so much going on up there! There’s so many people in my thoughts for so many different reasons and that’s before I even get to my own goings on & troubles! It’s slightly overwhelming to be completely honest.

I owe so much to my friends and family who’ve been there for me recently, it’s been a turbulent time to say the least and their support has got me through it, without them I’d probably be back on the happy pills that I’m determined to keep in my past. I juat hope that there isn’t anybody that’s bottled anything up instead of talking to me about it because I’m still here for my friends, I’d even go so far to say that helping them with their problems makes me feel better about myself because I get a buzz from helping others out.

I know there’s little things about myself that probably need changing but I’m stubborn and those changes might not happen soon if at all and I’m not going to apologise for that because it’s just me being me, and I’m never going to apologise for being myself. What I will apologise for is those friends who I simply don’t talk to often enough, those special people that whilst they’re in my thoughts every single day I don’t tell them, I don’t often enough take the opportunity to let them know how special they are and that truly is a shame because I know some absolutely amazing people and they should be reminded of just how awesome they are on a regular basis.

To anyone still reading at this point thank you for being interested in my likely incoherent ramblings, I can’t promise the next edition shall be any better though!